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This has just been a really shitty week, all across the board. I hate when that happens, all the big slams and the little slams come at you at once, till you're flat on your back in the mud with little cartoon tire-tracks across your chest. Mike came down with strep and tonsilitis, so we spent a good chunk of our weekend in the emergency room, and don't know how much of that will be covered by insurance. There was also an ENT appointment involving draining a tonsular abscess, very unpleasant. Mike felt better then, thank God, but we still need to get his tonsils taken out. We've penned that in for my Spring Break, so I can take care of him during the unpleasant-sounding recovery period. The insurance people won't talk to me, so I don't know how much of all of this we're going to have to pay for. It sounds expensive.
Mike's 90-day evaluation at work is coming up very soon too, so we'll know if he'll continue to have a job. He has to miss a week of work for this operation, so we're kind of worried, even though he's doing a good job with the kids. He got a raise because they went to a system where teachers were given salary increases based on their education, but part of what that means is that it will be more expensive to keep him on the staff. It was very nice to get the extra chunk of money in this paycheck, that's for sure. We've already spent just about all of my student loan disbursement for this semester, and it's barely February. At least they didn't shut off our heat.
I have a pretrial memorandum due Monday that I have no idea how to do. I can't find the textbook from last semester I'm supposed to be looking at, and from scuttlebutt at school, it's not that useful anyway. I'm having trouble even doing the research, and my motivation is at about zero. After my lackluster performance last term, and with the problems I'm having this term mastering the simplest techniques of lawyering like doing research on Westlaw, I'm starting to wonder if this is really the future I want. I don't feel very much like the other people at school, even though I like most of them a lot. I have no motivation to spent hours a day studying. I do the readings, I try to pay attention in class (most of the time, blarg), but there are so many things I want to do outside of school time.
Since I've started school, I've only started meeting more and more lawyers who are sorry that they ever got into the business, and it makes me feel worried. I don't want to never have any free time, or not be able to have hobbies or spend time with my family. Not to mention, if I do want to do this whole thing properly, I'm looking at doing an at least part-time job for no pay this summer. I don't know if we can afford that. We scraped by last summer because I'd been working full-time for almost six months, making ten bucks an hour. Given medical expenses and no summer loans, and the fact that Mike may or may not keep his job, not being able to get a full-time paying job this summer may not be feasible. I went into the Career Services Center and cried in front of the nice counselor while we were talking about my options, which was very embarassing.
Wow, if I could type this much on my memo, I'd finish the damn thing up tonight. But I don't have to put citations in my Livejournal. In any case, I'd better get back to it, even if that just means staring at my WordPerfect screen going "Shit, shit, shit." It's all part of the law.
Mike's 90-day evaluation at work is coming up very soon too, so we'll know if he'll continue to have a job. He has to miss a week of work for this operation, so we're kind of worried, even though he's doing a good job with the kids. He got a raise because they went to a system where teachers were given salary increases based on their education, but part of what that means is that it will be more expensive to keep him on the staff. It was very nice to get the extra chunk of money in this paycheck, that's for sure. We've already spent just about all of my student loan disbursement for this semester, and it's barely February. At least they didn't shut off our heat.
I have a pretrial memorandum due Monday that I have no idea how to do. I can't find the textbook from last semester I'm supposed to be looking at, and from scuttlebutt at school, it's not that useful anyway. I'm having trouble even doing the research, and my motivation is at about zero. After my lackluster performance last term, and with the problems I'm having this term mastering the simplest techniques of lawyering like doing research on Westlaw, I'm starting to wonder if this is really the future I want. I don't feel very much like the other people at school, even though I like most of them a lot. I have no motivation to spent hours a day studying. I do the readings, I try to pay attention in class (most of the time, blarg), but there are so many things I want to do outside of school time.
Since I've started school, I've only started meeting more and more lawyers who are sorry that they ever got into the business, and it makes me feel worried. I don't want to never have any free time, or not be able to have hobbies or spend time with my family. Not to mention, if I do want to do this whole thing properly, I'm looking at doing an at least part-time job for no pay this summer. I don't know if we can afford that. We scraped by last summer because I'd been working full-time for almost six months, making ten bucks an hour. Given medical expenses and no summer loans, and the fact that Mike may or may not keep his job, not being able to get a full-time paying job this summer may not be feasible. I went into the Career Services Center and cried in front of the nice counselor while we were talking about my options, which was very embarassing.
Wow, if I could type this much on my memo, I'd finish the damn thing up tonight. But I don't have to put citations in my Livejournal. In any case, I'd better get back to it, even if that just means staring at my WordPerfect screen going "Shit, shit, shit." It's all part of the law.
