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Today is my first real day off since school started, ahhh. No school, no work. I have reading to do for tomorrow, but that hardly counts, especially since I haven't done it yet. This month has been so busy and tiring and stressful on a lot of different levels. I'm getting by okay, concentrating on each moment that passes, but I'm trying not to look too hard at the big picture. I am apparently leaving that analysis to my teeth.
I went to the dentist last week, after much "we have no money" procrastination. The pain in my mouth got to the point where when it was hurting, I couldn't talk, couldn't think, couldn't really do anything but gulp down Advil and wait for it to go away. Since I'd just started the new job, at least we had the promise of a little money coming in. The dentist told me that I was clenching and grinding my teeth, and that's why they hurt so much. He shone a light in my mouth and had me hold up a mirror so he could show me the places where my teeth were broken or cracked from the incessant pressure. I hadn't even noticed until he pointed it out, but a hundred times in the past few days, now that I'm looking for it, I've caught myself with my jaw clenched shut.
He also told me I need a root canal and a crown, which isn't doing anything to reduce my stress level. I haven't got any dental insurance, so it's going to be an impressive bill, all due up front, of course. My parents are going to help as much as they can, but with my mom needing two surgeries and about to lose her job, they can't do too much, and I don't want them to. I mean, at a certain point, I guess I do need to start shifting for myself. I'm 24 years old, after all. Still, the help they're giving will make it a lot easier to make it through the next few months. Now that both of us are working, we're at almost 200 percent of the poverty line, woo-hoo! Strange how I still feel so poor. Ah well, this too shall pass.
I really like most of my classes this semester, and most of them, with the debatable exception of CFI, are going to be important for me in my career. But school is tiring, even for a slacker like myself, and I can feel how much tireder I am now that I'm trying to work as well. But work is pretty good, I don't get bored, making party platters and frying chicken and making salads and cooking and all sorts of other things. My feet are doing a lot better than they were three weeks ago. And I just got my first paycheck, which will always make you feel optimistic about a new job. We'll see how it works out for the long haul.
Not too much else to say, I've done almost nothing with regards to gaming lately. I need to start up again, as I know I've left people hanging, but I need to recover some kind of creative spark first. Maybe a really lazy day off like today will help.
I went to the dentist last week, after much "we have no money" procrastination. The pain in my mouth got to the point where when it was hurting, I couldn't talk, couldn't think, couldn't really do anything but gulp down Advil and wait for it to go away. Since I'd just started the new job, at least we had the promise of a little money coming in. The dentist told me that I was clenching and grinding my teeth, and that's why they hurt so much. He shone a light in my mouth and had me hold up a mirror so he could show me the places where my teeth were broken or cracked from the incessant pressure. I hadn't even noticed until he pointed it out, but a hundred times in the past few days, now that I'm looking for it, I've caught myself with my jaw clenched shut.
He also told me I need a root canal and a crown, which isn't doing anything to reduce my stress level. I haven't got any dental insurance, so it's going to be an impressive bill, all due up front, of course. My parents are going to help as much as they can, but with my mom needing two surgeries and about to lose her job, they can't do too much, and I don't want them to. I mean, at a certain point, I guess I do need to start shifting for myself. I'm 24 years old, after all. Still, the help they're giving will make it a lot easier to make it through the next few months. Now that both of us are working, we're at almost 200 percent of the poverty line, woo-hoo! Strange how I still feel so poor. Ah well, this too shall pass.
I really like most of my classes this semester, and most of them, with the debatable exception of CFI, are going to be important for me in my career. But school is tiring, even for a slacker like myself, and I can feel how much tireder I am now that I'm trying to work as well. But work is pretty good, I don't get bored, making party platters and frying chicken and making salads and cooking and all sorts of other things. My feet are doing a lot better than they were three weeks ago. And I just got my first paycheck, which will always make you feel optimistic about a new job. We'll see how it works out for the long haul.
Not too much else to say, I've done almost nothing with regards to gaming lately. I need to start up again, as I know I've left people hanging, but I need to recover some kind of creative spark first. Maybe a really lazy day off like today will help.
